I just want to give a quick update of the rehearsal process for Pima Community College's production of "The Laramie Project." Tomorrow is our Tech Watch and the hard work that has gone into getting this production on its feet has been pretty difficult. We've all had our share of ups and downs and what's so amazing to me is that we haven't even started our third week of rehearsals!
We've been privileged enough to have many guest speakers come talk to the cast and all of us are so grateful to have each and every one of them. One of the guest speakers was a woman who actually went to school with Matthew and knew him very well. Her story was very touching and all of us had tears in our eyes as we listened. She showed us Matthew's signature and a message he wrote in her yearbook. It said something like, "Don't hesitate to drop me a line." Or something like that! Seeing his signature was incredibly eye-opening. It just reaffirms what we already know: this really happened and it was awful.
On a more technical note, I am having trouble memorizing my lines and blocking! We had our first run-through on Thursday. Not only were we running through the whole show for the first time, we also had to be off-book for the first time. And let me tell you, that was a ROUGH night. It took us over three hours to get through the full show and there were only two or three actors who had their feet under them. I, obviously, did not do very well and knew that I would need to work very hard in order to do well the next day. Unfortunately, life intervened and I was unable to do any real memorizing. So, what happened was, for me, Friday was worse than Thursday. It was rough and difficult to deal with on top of everything else in my life, but I am so sure that it's exactly the motivation I need to get me to commit to this production with all my heart. However, many of my fellow actors did amazing jobs on Friday! They really went for it, as far as acting goes and I saw such an improvement, which makes me very happy.
Last night I studied my lines so much that it ended with an emotional break down, which is what usually happens when I care too much. I'm hoping beyond hoping that tomorrow's tech watch goes well for me! I want to be able to have my lines down so I can work on my acting. These characters are each so unique and my job is to portray them differently so the audience gets to see Laramie for what it was.
I feel like I'm hiking through a jungle right now. This is such a challenge for me in so many ways and I'm so glad I don't have to go through it alone. The whole cast, my director, stage manager and assistant stage manager are so supportive and I couldn't be involved in a more accepting group of people.
Thank you for reading this, whoever you are. It's just one more way I get to feel supported, so thank you.